Fishie Enough

I freaking don't care what stupid fangirls want to say about this. The evidences are out there, everywhere and you still want to close your eyes and stupidly blame Teayeon for making Junsu fall head over heel for her? Being a little protective aren't you? well I don't care. Protect them all you want, I just care about TeaSu and they are real.

First spotted at Hollywood Ball





ehihihihi pervert Junsu! ehihihihi

so the forbidden date continues



look at how he puts his arm around her, very protective manner. I have never seen Junsu like that.



From his own words
Junsu's answer on the JJ magazine:

Date Plan: At a restaurant, seeing the night view. A simple yet happy date.

When being asked “10 years later, which year’s memory is so far considered as the best memory?”, all members simultaneously answered, “2008!” with no doubt.

“In last year, everyday we’d been working so hard, being grown up, and since we went through each day with pressure, I really want to spend days with someone whom I love in usual/relaxing ways. Such as going to a restaurant without worrying to be noticed by people, eating delicious food in a place where we can view illuminations.”
“It’s nothing but just a date ‘to-do-with-happiness’.
I really want to spend days in good time like this with my gf.
If the time is enough, I also want to go to the sea… resting under the palm trees.
Do nothing but quiet… But I think it would take a lifetime to each moment (laughs)I

I have more reasons to write, more quotation to give but kinda tired now
and also fans account to share.
I don't care if fan girls want to believe it or not (I know they never want to). but I do.
if they are a past now, I just want to wish them all the best but if they are still together, I'll be over the moon!
I support TaeSu and I want YoonHae to be real!
DONGHAE OPPA, JUST DATE YOONA ALREADY!!!

I feel like I lie to myself. I say it's okay over and over again try comfort this heart of mine. but I know I fail miserably every time. I feel bad for myself, for my heart. I wonder why I hurt every time when I know I could just freely voice it out. I want to. and for myself, I wonder since when I became the type that hold back. And since when I care not to hurt feelings?

That is a white lie.

And I don't think i can tolerate it anymore.

I won't compromise.

and this post is so incoherent simply because when i first wrote this post, I was kind of down but the mood change immensely through the words and pictures of... Heenim. Yes Kim Heechul. he had been climbing the chart of my ridiculous effort of SJ chart. I try to put who is the first (this one has always been the same for the past 2 years. I'm coherent when it comes to him) and last and i always have problems with the last place. last time i checked, it was Kangin. but i like him too. so now I don't know. maybe all fo them will share the same place. like the number 7 i have the odd number of members. Okay back the to Heenim-made -me-happy. it was his latest entry of Cyworld.

We are supporters who stay strong to our conviction and will definitely not waver

Original Source; 김희철 팬카페 『KIseKI』
Credits; LoveChul. was taken in here
this was Heenim own word and yes he used red so not the translator or the fault of innocent me. I just love his words. it can be witty and stupid but it also be strong and sharp. and his picture in Japan, during fan meeting... he is a man and it is wrong to say this for a man but he is a drop dead gorgeous man and he is Hankyung's man, so I want to believe.. and his hairstyle is always something that i adore about him cause it will different each time I turn around^_^

why you are gorgeous like this oppa??? it's a sin I tell you. don't fall for his look. he is a man that can kill you^____________^

I wonder what is the feelings you kept for someone younger than you. LOVE??? no man, that's a big no no in a relationship. I honestly think, for myself, I less care about what others think or do, relationship with a guy younger than a girl will work out less. to put it in other word, it will not work in my case. I believe the guy has to be at least a few months old. you want a mature guy with sense of humor to make your life less dull. believe me you do. all macho-but-no-aegyo is a Borring guy.

but a little scandal is fun, especially with someone younger than you. noona loves scandal??? no you are wrong there. but there are few out there that caught my attention. and too bad they are younger (or a bless? cause I have Donghae who is rightfully a year older than me. My heart doesn't change that easy)

Scandal 1
when: recently, because i was still in dazed of Beethoven Virus
his DOB: 1987-Aug-04 (sadly only a few months younger than I am*cry forever*)
What did he do for living: acting... mostly. a little of CF and MC and singing too. and he is good with every job that he ventures himself into.
how did he do that (making him your scandal): simple smile, little aegyo, the way he walk and his manly voice (loser!) and his height is just the kind that i like (182cm is love!)
first meeting: Inkigayo but didn't really pay attention to him at that time. i noticed him in Hong Gil Dong but try not to betray Donghae after Beethoven Virus
Any deadly wish: I want him to be with Go Ara but the him with Stephanie of CSJH is also great. they are BFF. I hope they still get in touch with each other because Stephanie is so busy in Japan right now.
Just tell us already who is he: Jjang jjang jjang *drum roll*
장근석 / Jang Geun Seok

Why Geun Suk??? Donghae really needs to comeback soon before I fall hard for this guy. because, by theory, we are in the same age in Korean age. but i bet i won't. i find it's hard to fall out of Donghae( irony? too obvious!)

Scandal 2
when: when he made faces, try to act all manly but still comes out cute (bad try)
his DOB: 1988-Feb-18
what did he do for living: singing, singing and oh, screaming. that is his specialty
how did he do that (making him your scandal): his aegyo simply because he is a magnae. and did i mention he is tall? like so tall (186cm*spazzing face*). great body too^___^
first meeting: can't recall because he was overshadowed by the charismatic, expressionless Jaejoong
Any deadly wish: I so want to see this loser in making himself a manly face in drama. he must be all manly.
Just tell us already who is he: when I say magnae, Jajejoong, does that ring a bell? Yes I'm talking about 심창민 / Shim Chang Min

the perfect specimen of a man for me, physical part only. others, he fails miserably, our cutie Changmin.

Scandal 3
when: even before his debut.
his DOB: (i seriously feel like a pervert for writing this, his age) 1993-July-18
what did he do for living: singing, dancing like a cutie supposed to dance
how did he do that (making him your scandal): just stand and pose. this is one a wrong doer. not only young, he got me at less than hello. because all I see was his picture and I told myself, "oh this boy is not bad at all"
first meeting: soompi....
Any deadly wish: bad you bad you capture my heart when you are so so young. you are so dangerous you like a virus when you dance to "noona nomu ippo"
Just tell us already who is he: Lee Taemin (이태민). waa!!! why teamin why??? he is the only scandal i'll regret my whole life to have. he is way too young, the age of my brother for God sake! I feel so euw for liking him. but then i can't not liking him. he is cute!!!


can't you see the similarities (or in singular form) that i have that made like these guys. No1: all manly but too cute to be true
NO2: tall. i always have things for tall guys.

congrats guys, the three of you shall be honored with a tag of your own. and you have to share it^_^ (cause you guys might see more of them in the future)

"The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me

Chorus
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything "

I love you for being a just exactly who you are. they say love needs no reason but i need reasons to keep our love going on.
I love how you motioned your hand to the fans when you say " You are my everything".
I love your face reaction when you sang " my love is yours alone".
I love you for being the love that surrounded you.

Ahh, no one could understand this love.
it is special.
it is different.
there, inside one part of my heart, you live there.
this love is... unique.

p/s: I'd be glad to teach you English pronunciation, though i found yours to be admirably cute.

(credit Video to pri3an at YT)
(credit picture as tagged)

Gee gee Gee gee baby baby


ahh the virus is spreading and it has, for sure, infected me.
congratulation to my 9 beautiful girls for the winning at Inkigayo and Music Bank after only one week of comeback. you make unnie so proud

but i am more nervous for the come back of my oppa-duel.
after the promotion of Marry U officially ended up on January 2008, they haven't get new things as 13. March never amused me so much until now, i'm eagerly waiting for the come back of my 13 oppa. (or it might be 15 now but i don't care, as long as they comeback as Super Junior and make bigger impact then ________(insert any artists you want).

yesterday i was so... out of my mind due to lack of sleep and the pressure of can not sleep at all. so after class i had the urge to out, tough i have nothing to buy. so i do so, alone. walking around with no destination and guess what i bought?

yay! My lovely 4 oppas, 2 magnaes and 1 hubby
and one very very nice shoes

this week i'm going to be so busy. I got 3, to spell it, three test next week.
Sociolinguistic, liberal-critical thinking curriculum study (okay, i was being sarcastic) and Visual Basic class.
and we have drama thingy that we have to come up with a script and we will be doing a play by end of April.

busy busy term for me.
i would love to update every other day but it seems like the blogger itself is getting in my way. or should i blame the broadband?

i still fail to upload pictures and i don't even know why. i wish i knew why so i can really rest the case in peace, say blogger is having a problem now but then it's impossible cause the same problem occur to other site, you name it. Live Journal, Wordpress and even photobucket.
honestly, What is this fragattory?

my besties and i are having discussion tomorrow. we had the idea of creating a line/script derive from song. i was thinking Doushite by DBSK. and i had the feelings of wanting to do something tragic that involves dying.
(you are not thinking straight mawa cause the chance of getting hit by tomato and rotten egg if you are planning on doing that is like 101%).
so let's just see where we are going in discussion tomorrow.
(and i want to do it outside of the hostel, like cafe or something, another excuse to go out. way to go mawa! {sarcastic})

yeah, more ranting. i jump out of that now. Let's talk about everybody favorite show. no, not twilight. i honestly not too hype about that movie or that books. it's The Gossip Girls.

I am so happy to know that Selena van der Woodsen and Daniel Humprey is a real life couple! no wonder their chemistry in the show are undeniably good. it's like a different vibes compared to any other couple. and guess what, i even bought a magazine that had this couple as the cover when the story not even took half of the page and only provided one picture. instead of feeling stupid, i felt happy. i was late with all these hollywood gossip simply because i occupied myself with k-pop but hey, at least i know something.
aren't they cute?

i just see the kind of guy that i like in Daniel Humprey. sweet, but not a sweet talker, loving but not romantic, caring but not overprotective. maybe an average guy is not bad at all although guy with money and gold is still good.

instill that characters in Donghae, i'll marry him tomorrow no question ask.

What was I writing,again?

p/s: I'm the bat girl tonight...again. should get some sleep now.

honestly, holding your money is a great feelings but then you are the biggest threat to yourself if you are a spend thrift like me.
dangerous.
very dangerous.

after UTM's treasurer bank in the money, my besties and i went out almost everyday.
it's crazy.
i want to, so kuch, restraining myself but then each try leads to the biggest failure.
it seems like everyday i have reason to went to Jusco.
What do they have in that mini Jusco?
we walk around and go back to where we started but then each day, we able to find something to amuse us.
like yesterday, the reason I went out was to pay my broadband.
mission accomplished BUT we, Farah, Falah and I ended up in Secret Recipe because we can't resist the offer of Coffee deal.

Coffee is my serious epic fail.
I can't resist it. It's like my second Donghae.

back to the secret recipe's moment, this is what we had

very very good. falah's new york cheese, farah's blue berry cheese cake and brownies for me.

a good go with coffee that melts with ice cream, bitter sweet of life.
(i'm giving up now to upload the picture, blogger choosed to be a sucky at this moment)

i try not to spend too much but i already bought a phone, two phones in fact, one for me and one for nina, sony walkman and a lot of foods.

failure....

it's in the name i guess

I feel restless today.
today, for everything that i pray for,
for everything that i wished for,
for everything that i hoped for,
has been blown away,
blown away by a soft wind.

I might be wrong and i might read too much between the line but i think Taeyeon and Junsu has officially broke up. (but on the back of my mind, i try to deny this!)
i don't even know where i should let go of this frustation.'of course it's not my bussiness to begin with but i am a fan of Taengoo umma.
why do i sad they broke up?
read the translation of her chin chin diary entry as provided by cathode @ soshified.com/ forums. read it here

January 10th, 2009.
It's been already 9months since I became a DJ.I think I've been a celebrity
for a year and a half? Also, our SNSD's mini album began today. As time passes
by, I wonder if I'm changing or not. And I wonder if I'm developing as a better
person or not. I've been thinking a lot about these things. I didn't expect some things to be this difficult and complicated ...I thought about why I was so stressed about those things. However, the answer was simple.Because I like what I'm doing. Because I want to do it.Unfortunately, there can be troubles when I'm happy. This happens in corporate life and when you're with new people... know that these are part of the social life but... I have no idea what I should do...
Even adults have difficult time dealing with the social life. Social life is a
big burden for a twenty year old, me. It's not like we are machines, we are
people.I don't understand why people don't have flexibility and why they are so cold to each other.Moreover, they say they are the best and boasts...I also don't understand how there are so many misunderstandings between people. Sigh..it seems my diary became dirty. I don't mind speculations but I hope people don't jump into conclusions. Please...come on! Please!I hope I'm more honest. Finally, today, I have lost an important person, whom I love.

I kew TaeSu are or were real.
but i want them to be together.
i am stupid for this.
what wistful thinking of them breaking up.

if i read and interpret the highlighted part
Why they are so cold to each other - she might have or face other problem but it might means she felt sad of how she was being treated. Junsu was so cold, he act like he never knew her when they share the stage together. he might be upset but damn he was cold. PMS Junsu?

and i would like to empahsize on the last part, she lost someone she love. what was that?
no death occured i can confirm that, otherwise the comeback stage will not happen. she is sad, so sad in her diary this time. if i examine her facial expresion during the comeback stage, she look not as lively as before. mature? no i don't think so. maybe because i am more to Taeyeon so every movement of her i would watch more closely then ever.

i could feel different vibe when i watch kissing you performance and Gee performance. and i could tell her voice was a bit distracted in Gee, not the best though it might sounds okay to other's ear but i know it was not the best, not as good as ussual.

it sounds broken... waiting to shutter into pieces.

She should be happy, supposed to be happy because the day this entry was recorded, it was the same day with her comeback stage.

she should be happy knowing 1000 of s♥ne turned out but she was sad over a speculation.
she should have mentioned how delighted she was knowing all 9 of them are sharing the same stage again but she was mourning over social life.

she should feel wonderful "gee" was a hit but all she mentioned was about she lost someone whom she love.

don't tell me it's happening.
i just watch hollywood ball fancam, the one where Junsu seems like he can't take his eyes off her.

he used to but not anymore.
now he didn't even looked at her.
yes, because of stupid speculation.
Idol... aah it's hard.



all i want is for Donghae to have Yoona girlfriend and be happy

sorry, useless entry.
yet again.

Yes he is.


the possesive me. sorry no sharing.



ermm.. speechless

see how far can you go

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ!

and i found this website. the so-called genius web guesser. i guess he is because so far he guess the person i think of correctly from Donghae to Taeyeon to Cristiano Ronaldo.

and just now that ginie guessed Yoona correctly.

i'm gonna try till it give me the wrong answer.

thanks inny_cent @ LJ for directing me to it=)

edit: it even guesses my baby mason correct!

I'm gonna get Putri to do this, see if that ginie got it right. *unsatisfied*

what about i think of Anadita Dotatamolgu?will it guess correctly?

try yours here

edit 2: YES YES YES!!! it failed to guess Sakura. LMAO!!!

+ Life is good
- but money haven't come to mummy
- thus makes life not good
+ Donghae's pictures in Super Show encore " so yum yum"
- I just miss "our" moments together.
- I'm hurting myself without realising it.
- I guess my selfishness show.
- Damn!
+ Watch Hae's fancam at MTV CCTV *died*
- I've become possesive now.
- This is yet another useless post.
+ Introducing my latest obsession,

BABY MASON!!!
+ He is the little baby actor with Geun Suk in "Baby and I"

+ Why so cute Mason WHY???♥♥♥

the best CYworld entries!
I LOVE MY OPPA-DUEL!
taken from here

Jongwoon’s Cyworld Diary Entry 2008.12.21 22:21

2008.12.21 일 Sunday 22:21

There aren’t many days left in 2008 ..-

Although I hate being a year older ..

But I also anticipate a lot going on stage and meeting those who I want to meet!

Currently working hard at exercising, and I’ve done lots of practices

Please wait a little while more for the brilliant 3Jib ~

Those who betray will get hit, those E.L.F who are currently climbing walls* please come back!!

Day by day it grows

Quickly Quickly ~~

N.B* Climbing walls as in.. Like jumping fandoms XD

credit to: Original Source; 김종운 미니홈피
Credits; OnlySJ13



Jungwoon-ah!!!
how could we ever do that!
SJ is the best band and we will forever wave pearl sapphire blue.
Super Junior k.r.y.+T+M+Happy=1 love♥~

Those who betray will get hit, those E.L.F who are currently climbing walls* please come back!!
LOLing hard at this