The truth hurt


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Sorry... whoever... I want to agree... Stop me...

It's Beauty baby!


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The title is 미인아 = MiinA = Beauty



I wish Leeteuk would wear something. The fact that he is not wearing anything somehow shows he is insecure, that he needs to follow the trend of stripping. And it amazes me how he sacrifice is untoned body for the sake of the song. I know It will be cool! ♥~ Can't for for the 13th now!

TOMORROW!!!


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Cooler, way better, stronger than eveeeer!!!!!

It's tomorrow, May the 7th! Teaser will be released and I can't wait!

Although this comeback will give us only 10, but as long as Super Junior members are strong, me ELF will be strong for them. I will support them.

To Hangeng - May what you do now will make you happy. I wish you will be there together with them but since you have made the decision to leave SJ, nobody can stop you because it made you happy. But please, comeback and be SJ's Hangeng again TT. I Love you!

To Kibum - It seems like acting is far more imporant to you because it makes you YOU. So I hope your acting will be evenmore successful! Don;t forget to introduce yourself as Super Junior Kibum!=) Forever Loving and waiting for you to be SJ again!

To Kangin - I feel like crying... I love you so much that it hurts to see you leave for the army. But I believe you will return as the coolest SJ'a Kangin and that you will be a better person upon your return. 2 years are not long and ELF will wait for you! I LOVE YOU Kkang king!

13th May 2010

13.... & ELF

Forever!

You are still fresh on my mind [20032010]


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Yes, the image of Super Junior here in Malaysia still fresh on my mind. Thinking about them and how I finally met them, it bring me such a joy that words could not explain... They are my happiness, the kind that not any guy could give and to be in this fandom is enough for me to smile and cry for them and with them. They are that special


I met you, finally after 2 years and half of being your fans. My heart beating so fast that it threaten to go out of the chest. I waited patiently for the boys to come out. We were entertained by Chinese group and a Malay singer. ELF were getting impatient. We were screaming for SJ. Finally the lights are off. The only lights were from ELF's lightstick and I swear seeing the sea of pearl sapphire blue was so much better live


and Finally finally finally the show begun. The members made a dramatic entrance and with each names being called out, there was a loud scream and members came in from different sides. From my side, it was Sungmin and let me tell you, his skin is so fair, he looks soooo cute up close. Pictures are all lies! and because I was so excited, it was a little shaky.


The show begun and I can't sit still. I was waving my light stick like a mad girl, same with everyone else. And I swear I lost a lot of fat on my under-arm. Such a good way to exercise.


and I manage to capture all 10...
Meeting you was the best thing ever

Leeteuk - Although you were unwell, you gave your best and smiles never leave your face. And when you cried during Shining Star, I can feel how much you love us, how much you appreciate us. I love you leader-nim... Please stay strong cause We ELF will always stay with you.

Heechul - You were so hyper and I am so happy to see you enjoy your time here. And yes, you truly are Milk Skin Kim Heechul! Seeing you up close, you truly are a beauty no girl can match. I even think you are not even a human cause you are so pretty and I really love your hyperness. Thank you for bringing our little Henry on your stage and Hyukjae and Ryeowokie^^

Yesung - oh yesung, thank you for kept on walking in front of my seat box. Thank you for kept on waving to us. Thank you for singing so beautifully. Thank you for being so dorky that night. I had a good laugh because of you. I love you evenmore after that night!

Shindong - OH WHY SO CUTE??????? Your hair style that night look so good on you, you know that? and that you are soooo funny! and you are not that fat! In fact you look so well built! I think the diet is starting to take the effect^^ I love you and thank you for being so lively that night!

Sungmin - Oh my pretty Sungmin, oh my I think my heart is expanding because of you! Sounds so perfect live, looking so good live. You are everything that I never imagine you to be. I am so touched during your solo. I love you beyond your cuteness.

Eunhyuk - Beyond that anchovy hat, I see a great dancer which is no secret and seeing your passion in dancing overflow up close, what can I say than a mesmerized eyes and fixicated only on your great talent whenever you came to the middle stage to show off your dancing skills? I love you


Zhoumi - You smile! Ever so wide smile when you are supposed to put on a sad face for "blue tomorrow". We were screaming for you whenever you sing. and you smile so much that I feel like crying. Cause your smile means everything to use, especially after what happen at Shanghai, we felt that this is the little thing we could gave you yet you smile so much that night! and dem you are soooo damn tall!!!! I love you Mimi!

Donghae - I claimed you as mine... forever. though my heart were on a wave that night but I feel like I need to calm down for awhile after seeing you. SOOO GOOD LOOKING!!! So Romeo-like... If I ever want a boyfriend, I don't want him to be like you cause I'm afraid girls will kill me. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN EVER!

Siwon - A walking mannequin you are. Tall, good looking, perfect, your body is perfect, you have a heart that is so beautiful. What are you made off honestly? and how you sound so perfect in real life. I wish I could listen to you everyday cause I have no idea how good you were when listen to you singing live. And I could never believe but I finally saying this to you, I love you!

Ryeowook - Cutie Wookie, loveable Wookie...♥ You look so small, like really cute that I want to hug you so hard.Oh you singing with all your heart and I think you look so cute when you reach high note effortlessly. Thank you for walking back and forth at my seat box. You have a cute butt (yeah, I did look at his butt because it was too cute... FML). I love you cutie Ryeowook^^

Kyuhyun - Yeah magnae, I know you are all tall and good looking but seeing you real life OMG WHY SO GOOD LOOKING! Fair skin (albeit pimples that were invisible), tall and so damn cute! Your live makes me want to cry because you sounds so so great. I do wish you sang 7 years of love song but that song you sang was great too, as long as I could listen to you singing. Magnae, cute magnae... I love you!

Henry Lau - bb, my bb Henry. My love for you was pouring like rain so hard that night. When you came out before Heechul's solo, I was so excited. and you playing your violin with passion. How beautiful it was for me to see. Your solo was perfect too! and we were screaming for you real hard I almost lose my voice that night. and when it comes to the end, I went down from my seat to bid you goodbye while waving this

and I think you saw it because your eyes were on me for a nano second and you were smiling till I can't see your eyes anymore... Oh How I LOVE YOU MORE!!!

Although we can not see all 13, as in the real 13 but I know everything will be fine someday. Kangin will return, Kibum I wish him all the best and honestly I have long give up on Hangeng to be is SJ again because he is happy baking and making milkshake in China. All the best to you Hangeng.

I had a wonderful night that night. After that night, I believe nothing can stop me from loving them. The concert bond me better with them. One night has change all my love for them and it is nothing but stronger love than before.and now I miss you more than ever!

See you in Super Show 3 (and I hope they will come up with new and better name too^^)

Oh! Oh! Oh! Jonghyun♥


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DEM DEM DEM!!! I promised myself not to fall again for any band. I did promise but this time, I don't know if I can keep it or not. Dem it!


I have been watching CNBlue eversince the first day they debut. Okay I admit it, even when Yong Hwa is the 'in' guy right now, I don't feel the vibe with him or whenever I look at him. I don't even think I will like him if it was not for Seohyun (because he is such a darling whenever he takes care of Seobaby). When I last fell for Nich Khun which I never intended to do so, I told myself that I would stop.But then I saw him, smiling so brightly...


There goes my resolution...
and I watch his interview. When asked what kind of woman he likes, his response was;
"I would like to have someone whom I could lean on. My ideal girl is someone who is older than me. I like Noona"

♥♥♥
He is sweet, he plays guitar, his smile is so nice, he could sing and oh-so-charming....
I fell so hard when I saw this...


I'm a pedo..................................... for Lee Jonghyun...
(but the thing is, reality check, I will never date someone who is much younger than I am, even by month=/)

Fany's Poker Face♥~


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I am addicted to Fany's voice in the recent KJE's Chocolate! Her rendition of Lady Gaga's Poker Face is even better than the original version! Although people said the song is about sex and whatnot, Fany's feeling of the song is different, like she brought a whole different feeling to the song. Oh Fany, your voice is soooo beautiful!




I have been promoting this clip through my sig in sj-world, ssf & soompi^^
AND YES!!!!!!!!!!! MBC WILL AIR WGM LIKE USUAL!!!!!! Jealous Yong~

the CHANGE


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Change Change Change^^


Yes, Changing before I get caught yet again, I have been risking myself to write everything here^^

So now i need to change^^

It's here!


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Super Show 2 Promotion Clip in Malaysia







Ngeng~
WHY SO CUTE LAH!!!!
the precise pronunciation of Apa Khabar by our leader-nim is the cutest thing eva!!! and Magnae was like "Bukit Jalil"

Hey Lee Donghae, I demand you to say "sayangku..." you love this kind of word don't you? Especially when you refer to Chinese ELF as 'Wo de Poppei' (my baby darling) so it's only fare for us to be called sayang right?

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

and stupid stupid fans in Shanghai! You guys are so lucky to even have an encore concert when Korean ELF do not. But how come you were so rude to Henry and Zhoumi? Hangeng made his own choice to leave the group, so RESPECT that!. He was not even Jaebum who was forced to do so.

Oh no calm down Mawa, I am supposed to be happy right now~

The rare, once in a lifetime


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So for WEEKS I have been contemplating whether or not I should buy the ticket for Super Show In Malaysia. For weeks and weeks until I made up my mind last week, that I should go. I know I will cry but I still want to go. I believe this love to them will fade away one day, despite how. But before the love fades and before they decided that there will be no more Super Junior and while the love is still here, the passion is still burning, I want to think of this as a rare chance. I will grab it and I will go. I will go! My sister will but the ticket tomorrow. I WILL GO!


Weird how in Malaysia the cheapest ticket sells the fastest^^

Jaebom will never returned - Fact!


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http://www.allkpop.com/2010/02/jaebeom-is-not-returning-to-2pm


Somehow it's true. With Wonder Girls members kept on changing and Jaebum is quiting, I guess JYP is so so lenient with their artists that he manage.

Honestly, though the reason I follow 2PM was because of Nichkhun, but I can help making this funny, 4-D, out of space leader (or should I address him as ex-leader now?T.T) as my third fav because he is sooo pervertedly funny! (of course Wooyoung is the third because that boy is practically Nichkhun fav boy!). I can't help to feel for him. Whatever he did, I wish him all the best and still anticipating for his return, as 2PM leader.

Even with the addition of members of SJ-M, at least no one is leaving, but now I am not certain of Hangeng, Kibum and Kangin.

Oh well, screw problems. We want to live our full of happiness and I hope SJ will return with 4jib complete with all of their original members.

PSMPSMPSMPSMPSMPSM it's killing me!

Bloody Valentine


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Lately, I can't stop listening to Tata Young's Bloody Valentine. It's not that I am still in love with my crush or whatnot (ehem, ex-crush which I sadly never have the opportunity to talk to him since I was 15 T.T)

The song has such a dark elements yet I can understand the meaning well, just like My Chemical Romance's Helena but that is a different genre all together but still the elements is almost the same.
Well, I name the title of this post as Bloody Valentine just because. That wasn't my real intention of updating this blog.

I feel so messed up thinking of the work ahead of me. But I have finished writing TWO yes TWO, not one, TWO YoonHae fics when I have a workload , assignment to finish. I never have writer's block when I was doing my assignment. Everytime I started with one word of assignmnet, suddenly the idea for fanfic were running like an open water tap. Vindicated.

and suddenly the title makes sense.
Oh YoonHae, you are my bloody valentine!

You are beautiful


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greeting his sister in-law



Their first date as husband and wife was at the bookstore and later they ate nice cake at the nearby cafe. After that, they went to Lotte World for rides.


I AM JUST TRYING TO DIGEST THE FACT THAT SEOBABY IS NOW A WIFE TO HOTTIE JUNG YONG HWA!

The Shock of my life


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The moment I read the news, my ears went red, my face was blushing and I feel the room is warming up.

Our baby Seo is getting married!!!!!
:ayokona:

it seems surreal and hard to believe that the girl who loves Keroro way too much, the girl that chooses sweet potato over Seung Sang Hoon, the girl who's ideal guy is Captain Jack Sparrow is getting married?

Okay do not panic! It's that she'll be the new line for We Got Married Show.

and whom is the lucky guy?

it's the guy that was rumored to be with her, CNBlue Leader Jung Yong Hwa


I am so so excited to see this show yet again! after the departure of the original couple the show seems a bit dull. But Gain-JoKwon makes it worth to watch and now we have Seobaby!

Cute Taeyeon & Junsu Video compilation


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I browsed through Youtube as the inspiration to write better assignment seems to be loss in the mid air. Writer's block yet again T.T. Hence I fill up the time of doing.... nothing better. Usually I don't really watch compilation of videos that contains similarities of the pairing (I'd rather have the moments itself) but I found this to be very very very very cute of Teangoo! It wasn't coincident that the person she love to copy is Kim Junsu.



More than a series of prove, I would go for cuteness of Teayeon in this video compilation^^ No doubt a kid leader!

Cho Baby


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Hey world, I LOVE THIS BOY!


Yeah I said I love Donghae
but this boy is...
is too...




















I LOVE THIS BOY, THAT'S IT
KTHXBAI

p/s: I Miss HanChul (or HeeKyung)
::(

Heading to the ground - my fav scene


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Yes, I have been skipping the DVD to go the last DVD. But I don't feel sorry because inside it, I found one, among many other Bong Gun-Hae Bin moments, most memorable scene.

I FREAKIN LOVE THIS SCENE!



I don't know why but it was so sweet. Like how she cried for her stupidity of not knowing but I love the fact that she always believe in him.

Or is it the way she wiped the dripping blood of his nose with the sleeve of her sweater without caring much if it will stained her clothes?



:inlove:

HAHAHA


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:scream:

I was watching these video of Ris Low and how people were bashing her for her Singlish.

(Please ignore the earlier part and the end part where they were showing her body in bikini. That was not my purpose of sharing this video)
It was clear that her way of speaking English, in my honest opinion, really reflect the culture and the true language of Singapore. However, she was dethroned from her title of Miss Singapore World as people were bashing her way of speaking English. Of course what Singaporeans want is someone who can speak good english with no trace of Singlish at all when they themselves bashed her USING singlish. Yes, it was funny, but that is the real Uniquely Singapore,they are that unique.

But the deabak thing was these spoof by PCK, it was sooooooo downright funny!






It made my night!

Star Star Star (☆★☆), You are my star!


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My fav ballad number from their second album. And Yoong's narration was good! admitting that Sica does sounds good in this too. Though I don't really like her but if she sounds good, I'm in no position to deny that fact. Oh Sunny, her voice is sooooo sweet!

and DO YOU HEARD HYO???? OMG SHE IS SOOOO AMAZING!!!!!!
:inlove:

SJ - not a fallen angel


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I just read some nasty comments at some antis website about SJ being rude, celebrating Kyuhyun's birthday during After School's acceptence speech where the members of After School were crying yet SJ members were having fun celebrating Kyuhyun's birthday.

The comments were bad, saying SJ are rude, do not know how to behave. Those were the words of antis and we know how antis and some untrue ELF could be so over-reacted over little situation. People might ask, why can't they wait until the ceremony is over to celebrate it? Why are they so eager to celebrate it during the acceptance speech and worst, when After School was on tear for the honor? So here is my point of view, As an ELF

I do think it was rude for celebrating it during the ceremony but the cake was given by ELF and it so happen the cake was given during the acceptance speech. Think of it this way, Super Junior as in establish group and they have fans on their own and is a very strong fandom. Which one should they take care of the most? the antis or the fans? Fans as we know LOVE to take of their favorite group and from my guess, Kyuhyun's birthday cake was an Ice-cream cake, it cannot wait or the cake will melt hence they have no choice. Yes, they can keep it but it was for the celebration. And by the time the ceremony is ending, so does Kyuhyun's birthday. They were so busy and it's hard for them to get together nowadays, so that was a precious moments they wouldn't want to miss.

However, rationally, it was rude, they are not following the protocol of the ceremony and what was worst, during acceptance speech. It was a mistake, yes it was BUT they are human, we need to remember that. They have been making mistake numerous times. We all do because we are human and we are full of imperfection despite how perfectionist we want to be and wish to be. For someone who has been following them for almost three years, I know they are so easy to get excited by little things, especially when it comes to birthday or anything member's related. I guess they could not hold their excitement when ELF pass them the cake and they have the urge of celebrating it right away. It was sweet because it was given by ELF and they appreciate the gift but still it was a mistake.Mistake to celebrate it during that time and mistake to pass that over during that time ( I thought they have portable ice-box nowadays
:ha?:)

As an ELF (and I am not referring myself as a fan, just fan), I acknowledge that mistake, it was a mistake and I'm not going to pretend to say "hey, it's okay they are superstar!", it was rude. But still, forgiving them and protecting them is much better. Saying things like 'we are embarrassed by their act and feel ashamed as an ELF' doesn't really reflect that we are a true fans. If you are fans, and you love them, try to understand that we are never perfect as a human. Hence, forgive them, protect them, that is what we should really do.

They made mistake too so do think how much hurt it will cause them if we, ELF don't stand by them, protecting them.

On the other hand, Donghae is sooo........................

:inlove:


ILY THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSS MUCH!

Oh! MV


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Other than it's a cheap duplication of f(x)'s Chu♥~, I have nothing more to say. They are trying to go with this hobo-clash-cheerleader-clash-bimbo style.

But because it's SNSD, citizen will somehow forgive them right?

The song is catchy though, I like it^^

"Oppa chakaman..." yeah whatever!

Wonder if Kim Heechul wants to parody of this song during Super Show III, we'll see=D

My ideal type


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Always, always when looking out for my ideal type, the first thing that I consider other than good look is he must be very very very funny.

A lot of people has been suggesting clown to which I reply no thank you to plastic. So out of boredom, I found this website or rather a game, where you can pick you ideal type among idol group. (similar to Champagne Ideal World Cup where Heechul play and he chose So YeJin in the end) The listed idol groups are Super Junior, DBSK, Super Nova, U-Kiss, SS501, One Day (as in 2PM & 2AM), FT Island,SHINee etc.

At first I didn't think much but just play according to my bias and of course if I play with bias, Donghae would win hands down (I wonder why there is no Henry. I was waiting to choose him but then it occurs to me that baby of mine is in SJ-M T_T). There were some hard choice, I can't really choose between these two;

Honestly,I adore these two scandal of mine. Both are cute, super duper cute especially Taemin. Both are good looking, good with aegyo, aish, both can make noona happy. But then because of age factors, I had to choose Nichkhun. Taemin makes me look.... old.

or between these two;

TELL ME HOW TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THESE TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I freaking love Donghae and freaking adore Changmin! One is tall, one is... emmm... not that tall. One has funny laughing sound and the other one has cute laughing sound. One is direct with words, one is romantic. One knows how to bully even he is a magnae, one is good at getting himself well protected because of the strong back-up he has. One is cute but funny, one is romantic and soft. and damn it, both are just so good looking. But in the end, bias get in the way, have to put poor Changminnie down (sobbing myself tsk tsk)

or tell me how to choose between these two?

tsk tsk. One is my real deal ideal and the other one is sooooo freaking adorable that this picture does not does him any justice (though he is forever and ever a cutie).


and I present to you my top 8 after much better thought, bias a little bit out of the way

Changmin vs Leeteuk
Donghae vs Jaebum (another hard choice cause I like 4D boys like Park Jay)
Daesung vs Jaejoong (it's hard too... because believe it or not I think both have similar gag style)
Wooyoung vs Onew (seriously I can't choose... Dubu is cute too and Wooyoung too T_T)

but that wasn't the real deal choice. The third time I played it, I thought I should really be looking for my ideal, not because they are my bias or good looking.
I like Funny, rich, good looking guy. I am human after all, my future spouse need to be...lookable and also kind hearted. After doing this Ideal Cup thing, I realize I like leader type. The kind type and funny but not that ssanti (I am fine with a little ssanti cause ssanti can give me a good laugh when I am down), someone who can make me laugh out of blue but at the same time can take care of me well.


Yeah, I know. Look world, I like the weird kind (well except for Hangeng). Jaejoong though he is undeniably hot, he is a little weird too and maybe just maybe having best friend like Hyunjoong is a major factor that leads to the weirdness too. Jokwon... do you need explanation for JOKWON? Well it goes by the name

and the winner is;

Yeah all softie in BOF, in real life he does not. He speaks his mind, make not funny things to be funny and he is just... weird. Plus a little charisma and no cuteness and romantic but the type that will silently watch over the one that he loves makes me choose him in the end. I am not into romantic guy honestly and Kim Hyunjoong just describes the kind of guy that I want. To the top 4, don't cry.World can be a little cruel sometimes.

sometimes I think of leaving...


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for some reason, sometimes I feel tired and weary. Because fandom sometimes does have it down time to. For instance, the fight among SNSD's fans, claiming Yoona had too much exposure as compared to any other girl

(They are so stupid! She only been in 1 drama, 2 personal CF and 3 variety shows on her own. Now compare that to Yteayeon who has her own radio show, Yuri & Fany who has their own show or Sica who has her own musical. That girl has nothing permanent!)

or how Changmin is getting skinnier because of DBSK's dispute. It broke my heart to see him nit smiling like he used to. I just wish this thing will be over soon and DBSK will reunite beautifully, with all smile and laugh they used to have one day. (and for Yunho to lose some weight ^______^)

How Hangeng is having a hard time, battling with sickness and no rest. Yet he still smiles and be funny like he is. He still put on a beautiful face for us to look at, he is still.... Hangeng that I love and adore.

but the words form SJ members revive it all. I think I could stick to K-pop for one more year. I was seriously thinking of leaving it. For real! But things are not as easy as to say it. To realize it, to make it come true, it's hard.

SJ is a home, members are family and ELF are shield. We are together and will always 13elieve.

and damn it! so addicted to CNBlue! I don't know the name of the members AT ALL and I don't care to know. All I know is that they make a good music and the sound great live. Who cares about all the other stuff?