Fishie Enough

I really don't want to cause commotion but recently my blog has been found, the so-called secret ranting blog.LOL. When you are in cyber world, honestly nothing is a secret. someone will find it out eventually.

But above all, being an ELF, there is something important that I want to rant about. It's about Kangin....

To be honest, I am so dissapointed in him. A real disappointment hit me when I read the news where he drink and drive and hit and run all on the same day. But he is a man of his word. after all the bad things, he turned himself to the police and admitted his fault.

1st rule - when you drink you DON'T drive
2nd rule - a prove that drinking is not a problem solver so Kangin Oppa, Plz... stop drinkingT_T

because I care and because I love him, I really want him to be more sensible. He is not 5. He is 26. But depression leads one to do irrational things and that is why having God is important. Closest example Siwon of course. (and I am opinioning, if there is such words, from THEIR point of view). I hope everything will turn out okay. I believe things will be okay. Cause seeing Leeteuk in the recent Super Show in Shanghai hurts me. He usually jumping around but on that day, smiling is almost an impossible thing. But he did smile but not as much as always

T_T
(sj-world.net)

and he changed from TeukTaengoo to TeukSica which sounds a bit weaird cause I am already used to HeeSica. Heechul take charge of Taeyeon's part by changing himself to be HeeTeangoo. The rest, I am glad still the same. Maybe we see some changes again in Thailand... IDK but I don't really root for it.


and Ring DIng DOng.... my latest obsession^^

my baby drinking milk=))))

and Onew, I like decent bad boy. I don't dig bad boy but since it's a decent bad boy, I'd say why not?^^

Jang Riin's MV... what a dissapointment. I was anticipating to see some real acting. Instead, it's just a slide shows of pictures of Riin and Donghae. No substance acting. So much for Riin will act in her new MV. But lucky Riin's voice make up the disappointment^^

they asked "how's life?"
I would respond "great"

they asked "have boyfriend yet?"
I will answer them with "no"

They say "you are too complicated"
I'd say "you are being impossible"

they told me "open up and have a man"
I'd say " I love my life, guys just a trouble"

"feminism" they say
"none of your problem" I'd say


Those people who have nothing better to do, just stay out of my life. I have a fandom to take care of.

Today, I just talked with my favorite human being on earth. Jasmine called me today and as usual, if the phone call did not exceed one hour time, then I tell you, it's not us. We talked about everything but apparently that one hour was not enough to cover what seems to be everything cause our everything cover more than anyone else's everything.

And last Wednesday as we talked on the phone , she told me "Kurang asam kan I? bila susah baru cari U" and I told her "That is how the saying goes, kawan ketawa senang nak cari, tapi bila kawan yang kita cari masa kita susah, itu baru betul-betul kawan"

A friend in need is a friend indeed right?

Not all people can listen to you ranting about life and family.

Not all people can stand listening to you talking and so often the topic will be derived by a simple question.

But we can be each other ears. We can rely on each other.

Our friendship is just.... weird, much like us.

We have absolutely nothing in common but we can talk for hours and nobody can seems to stop us.
We can laugh over something people think is not funny and thought we are crazy. We can laugh over nothing.
We can laugh at ourselves.
We can have a deep conversation.
We can talk about boys.
We can talk about family.
We can talk about our different fandoms (where I'm into Super Junior and she is into Kinki Kids) and at that, we both become concern of each others fandom. I know more about Kinki Kids and she knows the name of all Super Junior members (mostly but still for non fan, it s something I can be proud of)
I tell her about issues in my fandom and she shares with me her issues in fandom.

With her, it seems like I have no secret.

We are like Eunhyuk & Donghae in Super Junior
or the Domoto brothers
Only we are different, in our own way.

So often I gain and lose friends but I know I will never lose her. She will always be there. Always. No matter what.


Thank you for being around Jasmine=))))

♥u

I just knew...
was devastated to know that Sica was there at PCD concert. don't know why...
I want to like that girl but events kept coming out T_T
I don't know.

I am not jealous that she sat behind Donghae but why she must be there behind hae???
It should be Yoona. LOLLLLL

Okay whatever.
hey, Sica, you are so pretty^^

I like you, I do I do I do Yeah~ (Donghae part in WILY)

sorry feel like this =(

Until I figure out what I am going to do with this blog, I will put this lovely fishie blog on hiatus. I kinda feel sorry for those who have been following my blog. Maybe I spazz about my k-addiction at wrong place. it should not be here where people don't know half of the things I am saying. It's all about Super Junior, Lee Donghae, Im Yoona, Kim Heechul, Nick Khun ets etc and I am sure you guys are not even familiar with the names. I mean I am sure to leave this obsession one day but till then I don't want everyone feel forced to read my spazzing. You might go " who is this?" or "what is her point?". I am not neglecting or anything but I found the right place to talk about all of this.

The red season because it's full Manchester United winning. The Pearl Sapphire Blue season for the obvious reason. I am subtle

Hey you,
Thank you for staying

Hey you,
Thank you for the comfort

Hey you
Thank you for everything that makes me fall for you

Hey you,
yeah you
Thank you for the graceful touch when I was down

You know I’m talking about you,Only you

I have nothing to say at the moment. I seems to transfer all my spazzing mode to other journal of mine, the very secret journal. so kind of bye bye to this one (?)

No, no that fast.

Just wanted say...
I"M NOT UP TO KISSING PEOPLE ASS. I DO THINGS MY OWN WAY AND IF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH ME THEN GO AWAY. YOUR STRICT FACE JUST MAKE ME SICK. GO AHEAD AND BE WITH THAT PERSON ALL YOU WANT. YOUR IGNORANCE MEANS NOTHING TO ME AND I SERIOUSLY LOLING AT YOUR STUPID KISSING ASS FACE LIKE YOU GOT NOTHING BETTER TO DO. BYE BYE TO YOU CAUSE I DON'T EVEN CARE.

Why shouldn't I? He kept makes me feel appreciated with these award that I don't think I deserve
*sob*sob*

Thank you amma, thank you appa, thank you everyone who has been supporting me (LOL what am I thinking? this is no freakin' drama Mawa!)

I have been awarded for

hehehehehehehehehehehehe

on for moar important subject, the reason why I create this blog:

AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!
Hey Khun.... for now you are my most fav scandal. Make noona happy yae?

AND My wookie's special stage in MuCore with K.Will is love! I always guy who able to handle music instrument perfectly, much on Wookie's image... it's just... soft.... and I like it... no wait... I love it a lot.





My love is easy nowadays....
I love Super Junior.
I love Lee Donghae (DUH!)
I love Kim Heechul.
I Love Park Jungsoo.
I love Kim Kyu wittiness.
I love Khun's dance in again & again.
I love how close Guen Suek is with SJ members and Stephanie.
I love.....
and I feel like a pedo noona fan nowadays.


tell me what I don't love?


When two favmeet... it's nothing but a good view... very good view.
I want to say something else but Heechul's finger is such a distraction that I forget what I want to say.

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone. Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people. Sometimes this faith can lead to disappointment in the long run. No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way. You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle. Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings. A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning. You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

...................okay

commenting:

"Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people"
not likely. I am in fact very selfish. selfless is what? I do have great faith in people only when I trust them.

"You are a good interpreter"
NO I AM NOT!

"you are good at predicting people's feelings"
SO NOT ME!

"You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer"
not sure about the great thinker part but a define no doer is me.

"Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul"
Oppa, do this now and make sure you get either one.

Adakah anda suka blogging? Kenapa?
Yes. Just because

Blog siapa yang selalu anda skodeng? Nyatakan 5
Please look at my side bar. it tells you A LOT

Upload 5 gambar followers yang anda suka.Dan describe it.
Mulla mulla!

Adakah anda menginginkan seseorang dalam hidup anda? Yang boleh menemani dan menyayangi anda sepenuh hati? Dan siapa kah orang itu?
I'm too young for this kind of thing.

SINGLE!!!

Pernah tak cinta anda tidak dibalas?
HUH? never been in love so...

Ciri-ciri idaman gf/bf anda?Nyatakan 5.
since I have no plan whatsoever to have a bf

Pada umur berapakah anda akan merancang untuk berkahwin?
when i am ready.

Nak Berapa anak?
???????????IDEK

tag who?
like none?

In the midst of happiness, now I feel under pressure. I got a lot to do, a lot to catch up and this week is the worst week in my entire life being a students. and I hate it. Seriously


why hot is underrated until SJ members wear something like this. YOUKNOWYOUareHOTKIMHEECHULANDIHATETOACKNOWLEDGETHAT!

and on the lighter note, there a story, behind the story of Super Junior members filming 12+ CF at Thailand. 12+ management like to stick to Siwon while change the rest members. Kyuhyun, Kibum & Donghae were the ones that got chosen to be with Siwon for the CF. and recently, Yesung and Heechul got chosen. They never had problems filming with the ones that considered as Dongseng. Kyuhyun and Kibum is the kind that listen well to their hyung and Donghae is the the type that need someone to be on his side all the time. So no adventurous happening while filming. But it was a whole different story when Heechul and Yesung were there. the staff had their panic moment when Heechul and Siwon were no where to be found during filming. After some time, these two return to the set. Of course siwon felt apologetic towards staff and crews but Heechul act normal (and i know, cute^^.Bias wins okay). It turns out that Siwon being dragged by the older one to ride a popular public transpotation in thailand called tuk tuk. Of course after so many times being there, they had no time to ride this popular ride in Thailand and it is a gift to be Kim Heechul because despite his moment of lost, nobody was mad at him, and said it's okay because he was busy before and had no chance to ride tuk tuk, now is his only chance to ride it. Lucky you Heenim. everything is okay when it comes to Kim Heechul, nothing is matter if he do it because he is Kim Heechul and he can do it because he is Kim Heechul (I read the story in soompi and re-tell them in my own words)

this is the Tuk Tuk that my heenim curious to ride

good for you oppa, at least your wish is fulfilled now even when it meant for you to broke the rule=)
(and he even has his own tag now. you look like something Kim Heechul!)

I feel like I lie to myself. I say it's okay over and over again try comfort this heart of mine. but I know I fail miserably every time. I feel bad for myself, for my heart. I wonder why I hurt every time when I know I could just freely voice it out. I want to. and for myself, I wonder since when I became the type that hold back. And since when I care not to hurt feelings?

That is a white lie.

And I don't think i can tolerate it anymore.

I won't compromise.

and this post is so incoherent simply because when i first wrote this post, I was kind of down but the mood change immensely through the words and pictures of... Heenim. Yes Kim Heechul. he had been climbing the chart of my ridiculous effort of SJ chart. I try to put who is the first (this one has always been the same for the past 2 years. I'm coherent when it comes to him) and last and i always have problems with the last place. last time i checked, it was Kangin. but i like him too. so now I don't know. maybe all fo them will share the same place. like the number 7 i have the odd number of members. Okay back the to Heenim-made -me-happy. it was his latest entry of Cyworld.

We are supporters who stay strong to our conviction and will definitely not waver

Original Source; 김희철 팬카페 『KIseKI』
Credits; LoveChul. was taken in here
this was Heenim own word and yes he used red so not the translator or the fault of innocent me. I just love his words. it can be witty and stupid but it also be strong and sharp. and his picture in Japan, during fan meeting... he is a man and it is wrong to say this for a man but he is a drop dead gorgeous man and he is Hankyung's man, so I want to believe.. and his hairstyle is always something that i adore about him cause it will different each time I turn around^_^

why you are gorgeous like this oppa??? it's a sin I tell you. don't fall for his look. he is a man that can kill you^____________^

Gee gee Gee gee baby baby


ahh the virus is spreading and it has, for sure, infected me.
congratulation to my 9 beautiful girls for the winning at Inkigayo and Music Bank after only one week of comeback. you make unnie so proud

but i am more nervous for the come back of my oppa-duel.
after the promotion of Marry U officially ended up on January 2008, they haven't get new things as 13. March never amused me so much until now, i'm eagerly waiting for the come back of my 13 oppa. (or it might be 15 now but i don't care, as long as they comeback as Super Junior and make bigger impact then ________(insert any artists you want).

yesterday i was so... out of my mind due to lack of sleep and the pressure of can not sleep at all. so after class i had the urge to out, tough i have nothing to buy. so i do so, alone. walking around with no destination and guess what i bought?

yay! My lovely 4 oppas, 2 magnaes and 1 hubby
and one very very nice shoes

honestly, holding your money is a great feelings but then you are the biggest threat to yourself if you are a spend thrift like me.
dangerous.
very dangerous.

after UTM's treasurer bank in the money, my besties and i went out almost everyday.
it's crazy.
i want to, so kuch, restraining myself but then each try leads to the biggest failure.
it seems like everyday i have reason to went to Jusco.
What do they have in that mini Jusco?
we walk around and go back to where we started but then each day, we able to find something to amuse us.
like yesterday, the reason I went out was to pay my broadband.
mission accomplished BUT we, Farah, Falah and I ended up in Secret Recipe because we can't resist the offer of Coffee deal.

Coffee is my serious epic fail.
I can't resist it. It's like my second Donghae.

back to the secret recipe's moment, this is what we had

very very good. falah's new york cheese, farah's blue berry cheese cake and brownies for me.

a good go with coffee that melts with ice cream, bitter sweet of life.
(i'm giving up now to upload the picture, blogger choosed to be a sucky at this moment)

i try not to spend too much but i already bought a phone, two phones in fact, one for me and one for nina, sony walkman and a lot of foods.

failure....

it's in the name i guess

+ Life is good
- but money haven't come to mummy
- thus makes life not good
+ Donghae's pictures in Super Show encore " so yum yum"
- I just miss "our" moments together.
- I'm hurting myself without realising it.
- I guess my selfishness show.
- Damn!
+ Watch Hae's fancam at MTV CCTV *died*
- I've become possesive now.
- This is yet another useless post.
+ Introducing my latest obsession,

BABY MASON!!!
+ He is the little baby actor with Geun Suk in "Baby and I"

+ Why so cute Mason WHY???♥♥♥

My dream guy as tagged by Eja
1) Good at singing


2) knows how to make laugh


3) Good at making lyrics/rap

하얀 드레스를 입은 그대
턱시도 입은 나의 모습
발걸음을 맞추며 걷는 우리
저 달님과 별에 I swear
거짓말 싫어 의심 싫어
사랑하는 나의 공주
Stay with me

romanization:
hayan dressurul ibun gude
togshido ibun naui mosub
balgorumul madchumyo godnun uri
jo dallimgwa byore I swear
gojidmal shirho uishim shirho
saranghanun naui gongju
stay with me

translation:
Her wearing a white dress
Me wearing a tuxedo
We walk, matching our pace
On the moon and star, I swear
I don’t like lies, I don’t like doubt
My loving princess
Stay with me

written by: Super Junior's Donghae

4) A good Dad for Sure


5) Love his parents more than himself


6)really, really, really, really, really knows how to look good but being dorky at the same time


7) a Good dancer



Yes oppa, It's you!





been together for 1 year and 6 months and still counting

i found an interesting tag question from Nabila's Blog
i want to try to answer it. might find something about myself, self-reflection i guess (BOYA??!!)

About You
[01] Real name: Lee Sarang ^_^
[02] Nickname: i hate nickies but eversince i graduated from high-school, i seems to be getting a lot. so now i'm accepting it fine.
[03] Status: single single single and proud to be single but married to Lee Donghae^_^
[04] Zodiac Sign: Cancer
[05] Gender: XY
[06] Age: 21 as for 2008
[07] High School: Private Islamic School
[08] College/University: UTM
[09] Height: just nice when i'm standing next to him=)
[10] Weight: the perfect weight for him to piggy back me;)
[11] Do you like yourself: are you kidding? me myself is the most precious person alive! I LOVE MYSELF
[12] Piercings: ear only
[13] Right or left: both
[14] Are you a freak : a big no no
[15] Hair: nice
[16] Skin: problem
[17] Allergic: squid
[19] What will you be doing 1 hour later: still here (in front of lappy)
[20] What will you be doing 10 years later: sleeping

Family
[21] Live with mother/father/parents/family: family. parents and 6 sibs
[22] Siblings(including you): 7
[23] Eldest: me
[24] Youngest: Abdullah Umar
[25] Love/hate your family: to death I LOVE THEM!

Significant Other (Imaginary version - Oppa)
[26] You found your other half: Yes
[27] If yes, who is he/she: Lee Donghae
[28] Who you want he/she to be: himself. i love him with no condition
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: i guess you trying to say how long have we been together? a year and 3 months.
[30] Ever woo boy/girl: never
[31] Anyone woo you before: him^_^
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: huh? did i find anything wrong or something is wrong with the question?
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: nothing
[34] Ever argue with your other half: never. i have to understand he do this for OUR living.
[35] You with your other half since: July 2007
36] Are you straight/Lesbo: WHAT??? of course straight.
[37] Reasons you love your other half: he is funny and never hide his feelings. he will cry when he is sad or laugh when he is happy. nothing in between about him. and he love to scream randomly. ㅋㅋㅋ
[38] You and your other half in which stage: marriage is on the talk^_^
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: answered
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: married!

Significant Other (real life version)
[26] You found your another half: haven't
[27] If yes, who is he/she: ______ none
i don't think i have to answer this part cause the answer will be boring

Friends
[41] Your first best friend: Salman
[42] Your first enemy: have none
[43] The friends you love the most: my 4 besties
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): Yahudi laknatullah
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: They are all beautiful
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: unfair Q cause Salman is the only and he is not even good looking=P
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: pretender
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: the kind that think they can get away just because they are guys
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: NEVER
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: no no
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: get out of my life
[52] If your friend betray you: i never want to see your face ever again
[53] If your friend woo your lover: nak sangat amik la. (take him if you want him so much!)
[54] If your friends fall in love with you: NO! i would walk away from his life
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: another big no no

On Study
[56] Are you a good student:i am, if i said so myself
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: most definately yes (nerdy Mawa=))
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: not the most but they do love me
[59] Always late to school/college: sometimes, depends.
[60] Your class: back in high school, happy, in collage,i shall describe it as party^_^
[61] You love your seniors: i respect them
[62] Senior who you love the most: Kak Wanie! she is married now=)
[63] Your classmates good/bad: in collage, THE BEST. high school, LOVE THEM!
[64] Excellent result classmate: my 3 besties (Falah, Farah and Putri)
[65] Laziest classmate: i know some who rely on other for work. like totally.

Human Being
[66] Smart people: I acknowledge those who knows how to respect others opinion to be smart even when they don't agree to it. argue is still essential but in a smart, educational way. that is a way to show that we are gifted with brain.
[67] Stupid people: those who never respect other people's belief
[68] Good looking people: everyone is beautiful in their own way. beauty is in the eyes of the beholder
[69] Ugly people: none
[70] Funny people: my siblings. they know how to crack up good jokes at any given time. and Nabil from Raja Lawak!=)
[71] Cute people: i know a lot.
[72] Bad people: Dunno
[73] Honest people: Me
[74] Acting people: those you see on small or big screen. they are life biggest fraud
[75] You are what kind of people: peek on my other half. you'll know me from my writing

Tendency
[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: none please. i hate skinship^_^
[78] Shorter or taller: taller
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: nice stomach. own satisfaction factor
[81] Listener or talker: good at both
[82] Romantic or rich: rich.
[83] Good husband or Good Father: both are equally important

Future
[84] Age to get marry: when i found the right one.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): dunno
[86] Career: a lecturer
[87] Salary: 10,000 and above. (haha, jadi NC la mawa!)
[88] Retirement age: when i die?
[89] Properties value: You have no idea^_^
[90] Wishes: to stay healthy and be happy with no betrayal and loads of money.=)

those who read my blog, i dare you to answer this. hahahaha *evil laugh*

BONUS:

sharing is caring right? ^_^
(credit: 이 동해's picture thread @ Soompi)

for those who just knew me, you might get lost with some terms that i use in my posting (if you are no k-pop fans or not familiar with k-drama). so let me guide you the way to my heart=). because half of the post, i might involve k-pop, my fandom and whatnot, and random usage of korean words, that is why i call it Kiptionary^_^, for you to keep it in your mind about my K-pop fandom and obsession=)

WHO are who?

Lee Donghae - my hubby from Super junior, currently working hard, earning money to support me in China with Super Junior M. read more about him here. it might not a complete but do ask me if you want to get to know him as my husband. i'll definitely give out the info for free=). he is a year older than i am. perfect match=)

Jasmine, Falah, Farah, Putri and Salman - my besties. refer to this post, CLICK ME!

Super Junior - a Korean boy band consist of 13 members and the music in me. and i am proud to say that i am ELF=). super junior starting from leetuek (the leader) and ends with Kyuhyun (the magnae=). in short, some call them SJ or SuJu because of the excessive number of member that is the reason i love them more, some of them were divided in sub unit.

1. SUJU KRY (stands for Kyuhyun, Ryeowook and Yesung). the focus is more on ballad song.
2. SUJU - T (stands for Trot, oldies song. in malay like senandung or gurindam or irama malaysia but trot is more like old rock... argh hard to explain!). the members are Leetuek, Heechul, Kangin, Shindong, Sungmin and Eunhyuk. they are the craziest sub-unit in Suju^_^
3. SUJU-M (stands for mandarin). they are focusing on China market thus they sings SJ song in Mandarin version. this sub-unit has made ELF furious when SM decided to add two more extra member for SJ-M. as if the original were not enough, they add more. that's why ELF fight and got "ONLY 13" campaign. i was also mad back then but now slowly accepting the adding, as long as the original 13 in Korea remain the same. let 7 be 7 in SJ-M and 13 to stay 13 as the whole super Junior. the member consist of 5 original member of Super Junior ( Hankyung the leadah!, Siwon, Donghae my♥, the twin magnae Rywowook and kyuhyun) and Zhoumi (cute cute cute chinese guy that is full of eagyo!) and Henry the talented violin player=)
4. SJ-Happy - as the name suggest, the concept of SJ HAppy or we shortened it as Supy, their songs are bright, cheeerful and basicly... HAPPY!!! the members are Leetuek, Yesung, Kangin, Shindong, Sungmin and Eunhyuk. aah, they fit the theme cause the are the loud people♥

Shim Changmin - my favorite member of DBSK. my 89-er


Kim Teayeon - my Favorite member in SNSD. she is 89-er


Im Yoona - The only girl that i'm willing to share Donghae with^_^. she is also the member of SNSD. very very very pretty, crazily beautiful. age? 91-er


Lee Taemin - my sweet2 dongseng from SHINee. he is 93-er


Kim Yoobin - very very cool rapper that has a lot aegyo from Wonder Girls=). sweet 88-er



WHAT are what?

Oppa - korean term for older brother used by girl. i will use this when i refer to Lee donghae, my hubby.

saranghae - i love in korea

besties - duh! bestfriends

E.L.F. - stands for EverLasting friends, Super Junior fan club name. pearl sapphire blue is the official color for the balloon.


S♥ne - pronounce as so one which also means wish. name of SNSD's fan club and the official balloon color is pink heart shape balloon.


Shinee
Shinee world - Shinee unofficial club name


Dong Bang Shin Ki/ Tohoshinki/TVXQ
Cassiopeia - DBSK's fan club name. red is their official balloon color.


Wonderful - Wonder Girls fan club name.


Big Bang
VIP - Big BAng fan club name

Dongseng - a term for someone younger than you like adik in bahasa.

Aegyo - korean term for act of cutesy.

Boya - like WHAT??? or WTH...

will add more from time to time=)

BONUS:
of course some sweetness from my bias love

he is full of aegyo!♥
=D;))